what is fair???

im sleepy, tired and yet im not taking some rest. why? cuz i have this pages of pharmaceuticals text book to translate.. although its not much, its time consuming. Foremost, im cheating, as im using translator to do the work for me. well, im a student.. what is wrong for me then? all i know, by hook or by crook, i must complete this headache before i can even make myself a cup of coffee. just not yet. still, im working. so, goodbye my beautiful noon nap, but i cant sleep yet.. not just yet.. u can wait my beautiful bed..i know, its not fair...

autism..

im dedicating this blog to my brother, who is indeed suffering from autism. with this, i have a confession, munna, im sorry for ever hurting you for the past year. im sorry for bullying you, although you are my brother, but you have the most attention from mum, and dad. because of you, we dint have a childhood which both your brother and i crave for. dad will never take us out as you are an embarrassment. nevertheless, you are in your own world.. i never understood your actions until later on.. then i know, that whatever your having, was initially a curse, which transform into a gift for all of us.. we started to see that you are genuine and pure at heart. you love us from the heart, and without reasons.. you read tears as it falls from our eyes.. im sorry for blaming you for everything, sorry for giving you the blame when it was me who has to be blamed. still, now, its something i willing to give up.. looking back, all those childhood moments doesn't make up much of my memories, it is you who do.. so, its something im willing to give up for you, my brother..